It’s my position. I’ve always had an undiagnosed balance/power issue. Only one side of my body is double jointed, and it seems to throw off my balance among other things. I can’t really explain the issue, even to former track coaches, so it’s just something I deal with. I think my gym workouts and such would help, but I don’t feel safe when lifting, squating, etc. because it affects that too. So I just do what I can because I enjoy it. I accepted long ago that I’d never be an elite, or even good athlete, but I could aim to do my best, and practice what I love